Somewhere down among the sheets,
between the spaces in loose gravel from nighttime sweats
lies the answer to an unasked question.
Somewhere underneath the skin of things
is poised another wrinkle, adding suggestions
to the game of chances only played by winners in drag
or posers lost in long hallways.
Somewhere up among the heights of nether
is held packages of days, a fistful of years
soon to be released upon the cold, dark land.
Somewhere you awaken from the same nightmare
everyone has, standing before a crowd
leaning forward to listen, and you with pants at your ankles,
a mouth full of sand.
But the nightmare is real, you are not.
And it’s the speech you can’t remember,
adding salt to the wound,
grease to the pole,
fire to a barrel bottom.
What of it? he said.
What of it? he says.
What if there were the solemn chance of a reprise
to a time, long forgotten but fresh-remembered?
A chorus to a bad song?
A bad song on repeat?
Old onions on ice cream?
Frozen water in the pipes
when all you need is a drink?
Surely there can be one straw long enough
to snatch from the fist?
Or are they there just to tease you for
the risk of un-lived truth?
Relief that the ground will still catch you?
Under-thought high dives into a dry pool?
Over-thought reasons for the same?
Somewhere, around the perimeter, is a chorus-line
taunting from a finish-line you did not paint
in a race you never trained for.
Somewhere, you’ve stopped running to find it.
Somewhere has found you.