Advent
Advent lies at one end of a taut rope: waiting and arrival. Not just any arrival; the arrival that changes everything. Come, let us wait together.
Advent
R. A. Rife
Cup before the pour, cocoa, or tea.
Clouds, rain-swollen, before taking their moment.
Hearts before words, warm and rightly spoken.
Page before pen, story pushing out to meet its maker.
Inside, a child gazes out at virgin snow.
Child, new and eyes closed, before the first embrace.
Car, keys jangling in shaky hands, before first welcome.
Night, old and disheveled, before day-gates open.
Gravitas, bodies’ ache, release of first touch.
Eyes, leaden-lidded, before the thick of sleep.
Tired world, sore of woe, looks East.
My Gingerbread Church
I’ve not been especially active on this site for awhile. You know how it is with poets. Feast or famine. Self-aggrandisement one minute. Self-loathing the next. Ah well…
Therefore, I felt it a good way to break this space open once more, not with one of mine, but with a surprisingly tasty piece written by a young friend, Ruth. She is as intelligent as she is effervescent.
Please enjoy her words as I have. Perhaps have someone read it out loud to you while you sip mulled wine and let Ruth’s words warm you. I give you “My Gingerbread Church” by Ruth Quill.
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My Gingerbread Church
At 11 John’s Place, a gingerbread house is under construction.
The pathway paved with after eights, garden filled with candy canes.
The porch a little crumbly, entrance, two gingerbread slabs
leaned against each other like a pointed hat.
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A gingerbread ramp with chocolate finger railings,
liquorice door frames and jelly beans for handles.
A tube of icing to cement the jellied toilets to the floor,
a gingerbread roof sprinkled with hundreds and thousands.
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There are jelly babies crying in the back room,
but our lullabies are full because we know what’s coming.
Jonathan snores and clarinet hums, samba drums and tap drums,
young shepherds and wise men, holy screams of labour.
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Let’s build a gingerbread altar for him, bejewelled with smarties.
Let’s hang a gingerbread mobile from the ceiling.
Let’s light a gingerbread candle and watch it burn down till the special day,
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when we’ll hand out gingerbread on the door, inscribed in royal icing
with liturgies and scripture, and then snap it in two,
and dunk one half into those brilliant cups of tea,
and eat it, soft and sweet, broken for us, broken for all.
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Ruth is a Scottish poet and freelance programmer based in Leith. Her writing is often inspired by childhood whimsy and play.
After London
On a whim, I performed this piece last evening at an open mic. It somehow struck a chord with me and I wanted to share it again with all of you.
Death’s death
Death’s death
Live! Live! Not one minute
more to solemnize the squaring truths
of the dark, exasperating. Exsanguinating.
The probing luminant, juggernaut
of dawn brought down as a quickening
shade of brilliance over the tar-black,
songless night – now gasping out
its own greying reminiscence.
Kicking against the goads, a denouement
of despair, decay’s quietus comes to mock.
But its voice is too dry now for anything more
than the androgynous whisper of a skeleton.
The bones rattle and try in vain to spark, to scare,
to survive the day, already here.
Death, this needy after-thought, this choking
wheeze of duskish, tight-lipp’d groaning –
it can no longer hunt, its legs are
broken, a dislocated shoulder no longer
suited to hefting hopelessness.
Spring! Spring! O antediluvian Spring! How
many are your salted children, lined up
outside your garden wall. Someone
has unchink’d the tangled gate and trodden new
footprints – fresh, ancient and deep – in the Virgin soil.
We come too, having hid ourselves in
the wisp of your blood-colour’d sleeves.
Droughted, now, a tomb and the perfect surprise:
breaths in lungs once shut, re-sighted eyes,
and in the first of all new hours,
Someone has made light work of death.
–
After the tomb
When blood, still damp, soaked through
the sleeves of shrug-shoulder’d men,
did you cry for their laughter?
Were your accusers held in sleep
when Mary’s shaking hands
held fast your plundered feet?
How long before bewildered men
and doting women find again
their reasons for remonstrance?
Will a miracle suffice
to fill the gaps in minds too young
not to lust for proof?
Were the angels surprised
to find their silenced songs
reignited for their fittest subject?
Did you know these walls would
only remind you of this one, unending breath?
This one effortless act for one so bored of death?
Triduum Words – Saturday

saturday
a day, laid out to flay and scandalize,
reserved for a more macabre affair
some spikes, some wood,
some dereliction of hope, one cosmic corpse
and in these longest of all hours
lay light itself
without so much as a yawn
–
the skies, now silent and spent
the skies, now silent and spent
review their own sorry past
for all hope has fled
replaced by the wordless song
of a dead friend
Painting by Wayne Haag
Triduum Words – Good Friday
Before God’s last laugh of resurrection, in order to lean more deeply into the narrative of these three days (tri-duum) of promises, communion, mandates of love, betrayal, miscarriage of justice, ignoble death, hollow silence, and dashed hopes, I’ll be posting poetry for each day: Maundy Thursday, “Good” Friday, and Holy Saturday.
Today is called, ironically, “Good” Friday. Obviously, a name given well after-the-fact since no one alive during those days would likely have called it such. Even a quick Google search produced this: “The earliest known use of the term “Good Friday” is found in the South English Legendary, a text from around 1290, where it is written as “guode friday”. While the exact origin is debated, the Oxford English Dictionary (OED) cites this as the earliest evidence.”
However, we have the benefit now of two thousand years of hindsight and written accounts from which to backwards engineer the stunning events of that day. What was macabre became for us something much, much more. Something…good.
What sounds are these…?
What sounds are these I hear
of sobs and sighing, seering pain of doubt.
If leaves could talk what might they say
of a crying God, a hopeful hopelessness wrapped in trust?
* * *
Raked across an endless heart,
the bursting bastions of familial love
come couched in terms of unsteady prayers, yearning, yet wavering.
One, two, three faltering steps toward full submission to…what?
* * *
“Must it be this way? Must this broken sentence require my full stop?
Let it be but a misstep, a simple error in divine judgment, and a world
hurled into disarray is called back again.
Must you kiss away their pain with my blood on your lips?”
* * *
Daylight friends become nighttime strangers.
Eyelids, heavy with grief, fear and confusion
flutter and fail. Closed and unseeing they become
when sharp and sure is needed most.
* * *
Gruff and groping they march,
crashing through grass, garden and grove,
sniffing and snorting with dark and heavy purpose.
A poisoned kiss stops cold their treading, hateful boots.
* * *
Two cold lips meet two warm cheeks.
Foe, one time friend, greets friend of all foes
and the world holds its breath –
pausing hell’s raucous revelry and heaven’s sonorous singing.
* * *
Ponderous parade of an army and shackled lamb
whisks down backroads to audience with puppets and clowns,
whose dirty, back-room deals deal out kangaroo justice,
promising the untimely sham of caustic, casual connivances.
* * *
Spewing, spitting, spluttering out lies,
the venom of their dalliance denies all place for truth.
And a king receives a pauper’s sentence.
And a pauper refuses a king’s ransom.
* * *
The dam of reason well collapsed
and the hammer of hate posing as justice
falls as teeth, claws and fangs bite deep
tearing open his back. Men flay the skin of God.
* * *
He is dressed in the accoutrements of power
the punch-line of sparring, jousting jokes
fit for fools, bullies and frightened little boys
with big fists and a caged bird.
* * *
His walk of shame, will soon regale his fame
and repeal the petty finagling of men, insane with lust
for blood, and bone and sating their angry palettes
on the sight of sorry sacrifice.
* * *
Bones meant for healing and holding faces in tender embrace
part for fiercer spikes, a government’s answer
to the unanswerable questions posed by a hated God,
whose broken feet stay secured to the place of their forgiveness.
* * *
Now begins, indeed, a most sinister work.
An only child, spurned by a doting Father scorns
the unsearchable pain of eternal loneliness that supercedes
a lesser pain: political torture by tiny men.
* * *
The uncertain winter sky belches forth
her mystifying darkness and the once joyous birdsong
succumbs to a silence, infinitely louder,
dripping with the shame of what shouldn’t have needed to happen.
* * *
Time’s bullseye is set in its fitting of that heaving breast,
gasping for breath, groping for a sorry excuse for waning life.
But oh, what shines forth from such battered spirit:
the alchemy of grace, a gavel strikes with love.
* * *
“It is finished” – such words, by heaven hitherto unspoken,
hang in the air like molecules of exhaled proclamation:
a deed done means another can begin,
and in 3 words, the world is forever changed.
* * *
Carrion collective circles high above,
the smell of death and forbidden dinner ripe in the air.
They, whoring, hope for bits of flesh, hair and bone,
meal of mangy wing-ed mongrels bent on the efforts of others.
* * *
Not so for this diamond, bloodied, limp and alone.
A poor man’s corpse blesses a rich man’s tomb
and scented linens shroud the face of passion
that, for now at least, lie pristine and still.
* * *
Why should such a tale, so swift, so sorrowful
twist itself into our earthly fabric?
How could such shameful chaos perpetrated by pawns
undo the fickle fate of cowards and kings?
* * *
What sounds are these I hear?
They are the mournful sobs of a Mother,
the shameful cries of deserters,
the longing sighs of the dead…
Triduum Words – Maundy Thursday
Before God’s last laugh of resurrection, in order to lean more deeply into the narrative of these three days (tri-duum) of promises, communion, mandates of love, betrayal, miscarriage of justice, ignoble death, hollow silence, and dashed hopes, I’ll be posting poetry for each day: Maundy Thursday, “Good” Friday, and Holy Saturday.
Today is, of course, Maundy (or “mandate”) Thursday and we find ourselves hidden among the twelve with Jesus at table with freshly-washed feet, the command of love still thick in the air, and imminent threat of betrayal.
Hints in a meal of trouble come
Hints in a meal of trouble come,
while bread, still warm, newly broken
abides, hidden securely between teeth
in mouths hungry for more.
Hunger assuaged, 24 clean feet and a single, haunted table.
–
Only crumbs remain,
mixed up and jumbled in pools of spilled wine.
A rumpled table top, tussled
with detritus of a meal, but laughing, flaunting its revelry
through unknowing smiles and the heavy eyelids of sleepy friends.
–
They restfully recline, sashes loosened,
bits of meat trapped in beards,
but not without gnawing whispers of
“what now?” “What next?” “When?” And in their shared memory
of goodness sense not the coming bad; the storm clouds of betrayal.
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An ominous, stealthy breeze sneaks through the room,
slithering past befuddled hearts
and blows its dark breath from one
whose riskless love cannot match he whose riskily painted love,
soon full-flayed and dying, cannot be matched.
By Whichever Wind
For whatever reason, I don’t post here much these days. Lack of inspiration? Maybe, a little. Laziness or neglect? Perhaps, a little. Distracted by other things? Sure, a little.
So, when inspiration comes, it rests on me to act upon it. That inspiration comes by way of this rather evocative piece by Hong Kong poet, Sean Kwok, now relocated to the Scottish Borders. It can be found in the 2024 edition from The Scottish Book Trust entitled: Hope. Contributions feature stories, anecdotes, and poetry highlighting elements of hope. I share the author’s note below in that regard:
I was fortunate enough to have relocated from Hong Kong to the Scottish Borders exactly at a time of political turmoil in my home city. Then the pandemic engulfed the world. When I stopped on a walk on a rather windy day, I made a connection with the wind. It was of course the wind that accompanied my flight to Scotland; so too were the ‘winds’ of historical circumstances and perhaps even a coincidence of timing. I felt guilty for having to abandon my old home and did not readily embrace my new home, yet despit the lockdown, fellow Borderers have generously befriended me. I saw that the idea of home need not be tied to land boundaries but can simply come from the heart, strengthened by connections between people, wherever we come from and wherever we shall go. The transformative aspect of home, like wind, renews my hope that humans can forge better days for each other.
It is with pride I share here his poetic ruminations on the same.
By Whichever Wind
Why do we keep moving, every generation a restless hand?
Some came by boat, others spirited by waters alone.
They kept their heads low; the skies took to our land
and made us whisper their parting promise.
I went atop the winds of fate
predicated by history and always
doubting, an island of distress
too busy casting the flag of freedom to the flame
than to see me go, as if to dry our tears.
I crossed the oceans of a thousand fears,
embracing neither pride nor pain
as I switch to a higher address.
Too accustomed to the ruins of a home away;
too much paperwork on our petite plate.
Memory serves as a chalice untouched by day
yet as infectious as a laugh in duress.
I felt the peace of night a lifetime’s gain
won by those I failed to offer but a voiceless cheer.
But there is more I can claim as my ain
as I find others who have been oppressed no less
by the walls of their house and still take time to play.
To the tune of the Tweed, you vow to confess
surprise at ever sunset, to bear an open heart again.
By whicher wind, you’ve carried your truth and let me fly mine
for both homes share the borders of my heart.
Wherever and wherefore I came and am to go,
I promise to follow the winds of life,
for nothing is more undecided,
than whatever our tomorrows would bring.
And we have much we can do together.
A protrusion of gratitude
My simple, but genuine gratitude for our life here in Edinburgh…
A protrusion of gratitude
Cloaked in landscapes of light, remunerations
of remembrance brought clear in the rehearsing.
That literature of land partnered with time
makes for fragrant mornings in settings
of coal-kissed stone, unsullied
by lesser things.
No more exile here –
just a protrusion of gratitude.


